Stay forever

Hi June. 

Another depressing night. 

Here's to never growing up. 

We live like rock stars
Dance on every bar
This is who we are,
I don't think we'll ever change

My results:

NOT SATISFACTORY

116 in level. So disappointed. 

When you're ready come and get it.

I'm sorry. I screwed up again. 

Am I that easy to forget?

I just don't get it. 

I'm so sick of explaining things. I'm so sick of getting sick. I'm so sick of trying so hard. I'm so sick of being that only one that tries. I'm so sick of everything.

I thought you said you would always be there. 

Everything just fell apart. 

 Why am I always the one that is always taken for granted?

Why am I always the one that tries so hard and get nothing.

I hear but don't listen.

When I told you I stopped means I really stopped.

Stop ASSUMING.

If you don't want to ruin our friendship then stop assuming.

Sometimes I wish I could sleep forever.

"Whats wrong?"

"I'm tired."

Sorry for existing.

 Why do the people I love always end up leaving me?

I hate being so close to that person and then they suddenly leave without telling me what's wrong.

And I end up over thinking that everything is my fault again. I screwed up big time again. Saying "I'm sorry" again. Being angry at myself again. 

I came to the state that I won't ever believe in myself again. 

"& she tries her hardest to look good

 but she still feels ugly"

Please stay.

 I know I'm not good enough but please stay.

In alot of ways I hate myself but I can't express it. 

I feel the emptiness inside of me but I don't know what to do.

I feel the bitterness inside of me but I let it live.

How much I want to erase those memories and feelings.

sorry.