Dear Diary: over.

Maybe it wasn't right from the start.
I tried to smile at you today, but I couldnt bear to stare into your eyes. I felt guilty. I felt helpless. I wanted to mend things, but I can't.

It's funny how a small little thing went to a big screwed up thing for me. I think I overthought too much and read the situation then differently. Ugh why was I SO stupid. The newspaper horoscopes said that I needed to give up and get over the things that have been holding me back, and if I let go, I'll have a much better and easier life. It totally spoke to me and I just felt pointless to hold on to something that's not worth it anymore.
He said I was out of your mind. You didn't talk about me anymore. You didn't think about me anymore. You had nothing to do with me anymore.

I felt disheartened. Sad of course, but I managed to get over it. And each time something bad happens, I handle it better and better. And now I just don't feel as pain as I felt before.
I'm done and over you. I'm sorry for the stupid dramas I've caused. It's been 8 months. Goodbye now.