That feeling when you feel that you're good for nothing? 

Everyone's good at something. I know my strengths, I know my weaknesses. I know them all. But you know some days you just feel like total poop and just think to yourself that you're never best at anything. Never good at anything. There's this side of me that never wants to lose but at the same time, there's this side of me that already gave up. 

You just compare yourself to others and think: why am I not as pretty as her. 
Why am I not as smart as her. 
Why does everyone likes her but hates me. 
Why does she have everything but I have nothing. 

You just can't help but to think why are you YOU.

You want to do something about it but people will still hate you. People will still think she's better than you. People will still think you're dumb as shit.

This feeling was haunting me today and is still and I really hope it goes away asap because I feel that it's getting the better of me. AND IT SUCKS.

Each time I feel that way, I always find myself wanting to gain approval from others. By pleasing them. By doing what makes them happy, not myself. And I don't know why but it just makes me feel satisfied that I'm a people's pleaser but too bad that feeling lasts temporarily and tbh I hate being a people's pleaser.

But today I wanted to shut the whole damn world away and just tried to give myself some space to sleep over it and think why am I feeling this way.

And I just thought that even though I tried my best, I'm never gonna be the best. There's always ALWAYS someone that's better than you in something but not everything.

Circumstances always play a part in feeling that you're good for nothing. But the problem about that circumstance is that you try to change it, but sometimes it is to no avail and you end up feeling more shitty about yourself. That's what I'm feeling right now and idk how to feel anymore because I just feel that everything's against me and yea.

What I can do now is to pray for the circumstances to go away and start afresh!!! Haiz wow what a sad day.