It's been a long time since I've talked to anyone. And today, tonight finally. Finally I got to say almost everything. Thank you guys for everything.

It was a night full of laughters and tears and I couldn't express how thankful I felt when they were with me. How blessed and how  comforted I am to have such friends. Wow. 

We had an impromptu break fast so haz and ning went to lot to get dinner and rented a movie(ended up not watching)

And just got carried away in my room talking about really really personal issues. 

First time in weeks or at least months I broke down before anyone. I hate feeling weak I hate feeling helpless but my feelings just took the better of me. 

I mean from what I see, even though some memories may hurt you SO much that even if you try your best to forget them, they are still gonna be a part of you, a part ofyour life and they may hurt like crap even though it happened like maybe 6 years ago but I think the main point is to move on. 

Yes, they're still gonna hurt. You are still gonna cry when you talk about it but it's over already right? 

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